Winter.Brouhaha

I've been doing the snow dance for months! Asking "Where is the snow? How can this be winter without snow?"

Been talkin' smack to Mother Nature herself, and I should know better.


Well...It came. It saw. It hit me right dead in the jaw.
Which leads to the waist.
As usual, I was enchanted when the first few flakes lingered on the ground! I adore snow!
I've been out of Florida for over 15yrs, yet I still get "school girl giddy" when it snows.
The first day was the Winter Wonderland I've been waiting for.

Unfortunately, this year the snow caused me a smidgen of grief.

*First* I work from home and the snow caused our power to go out, so I missed 1-1/2 days of work; unpaid. Getting the power back on was very very stressful. I'm glad to report it is back on. 

*Second*  The real issue, I ate like pooooooooooo. I am blaming the snow, although I know I must own this.

I feel ILL. I've poisoned myself.
(Disclaimer: The following words are the ramblings of a tired, toxin filled person. Read at your own English 101 risk)
This is what I am talking about. TOXINS!
I am tired, burping, bloated, fuzzy head .......our bodies way of saying "Dude, THAT was TOXIC!"

Have I mentioned I am diabetic?
I'll be like the "famous southern cook" and come out of the diabetic closet.
This is one reason I say that my waist is toxic. It is killing me, literally.
This extra 100lbs of weight plus out of control eating habits equals an early death.
I do not believe that the right diet and weight loss can cure diabetes, I do believe it CAN control it.
My goal is to control my diabetes with zero medication/supplement.

Stress increases belly fat, and also increases insulin resistance/blood sugar level
+
Carbohydrates increase belly fat and blood sugar levels

=

A bad weekend for my belly and blood sugar!

I like to highlight the positive of all situations. My family spent genuine quality time together.
Boardgames, playing in the snow, talking, etc
Yes, TALKING. We always talk but this was different.
Without any electronic distractions, you conversation gets a little deeper.
I may start turning the power off once a week or so.

I also got some laundry put away!

Not all of it, the important thing is I made a step, in the right direction. A small, easy to manage step.

This is one of the things I am working on: daily household chores/tasks.
To start: Laundry.

Instead of putting it off (until all the clean laundry is piled up in every basket we own), I want to do it daily.

It made seem silly to some, you may not understand how toxic something so small, so daily routine can be.
The amount of stress that it causes me, that I cause myself, is unbelievable to the normal person.

Here is a breakdown:
 

Action - I don't put the laundry away as it is washed daily.
Stress- Kids are getting ready for school and I'm scrambling through the baskets trying to find socks at 6:45AM and freaking out that I can't find them.
Stress - Saturday comes and I'm overwhelmed with 7 baskets of clean laundry to fold and put away. So overwhelmed I end up not putting any clothes away.
 Stress - I make a last minute decision to go out for dinner with my man and all my nice clothes are in baskets wrinkled.
 Non-stress - Put clothes away as they are washed; don't experience the overwhelming issue and always be prepared.

Seriously all that stress over laundry; causing my own toxins.
I am making laundry a stressor in my life. How sillywilly is that?


I can see how I've been feeling compared to how I feel right this moment.
I am talking about the food and laundry issue.
One step forward with the laundry, and two steps back on the eating. 

Previously, when I've taken the wrong turn I haven't been able to get back on the road.
My own mental blocks, such as: "I've failed" "You suck" "You are weak".
These keep running through my head, but NOT THIS TIME!
I'm on my dirtbike baaaby! I can just jump right back on the track!  Wooooowhooooo!

This is a lesson we all need to LEARN. Not just repeat verbally but actually LEARN.
We make mistakes, that is life.
It isn't the mistakes that make us who we are, it is how we handle the consequences.
Giving up says a lot about a person. I don't want to be the person who gives up.
I do not want my children to see their Mother give up; I do not want to pass this to my children through example.
I will continue to learn from my mistakes, to make the corrections and to keep pushing forward to a better me. A better me in a better body living a better life. A short stumble on the long treacherous path.

Tomorrow is Monday, I love Mondays! Yes. It is 100% true.
I enjoy my job and it is the beginning of a new week. What not to love?
So back to the track tomorrow; eating healthy portions, healthier food and exercise!

Next blog I will post my current weight, measurements and photo.
I am trying to figure out how to post a list of my goals; big and small.
Hopefully I'll figure this out soon. Thank you again for reading.

- REMOVE THE TOXINS,
Jenious